"Sorry if ever I have done something wrong, if i haven't met the expectations, if i haven't done those things I should've accomplished. Sorry if ever for sometime, I've lied to you, I've done something that touched your ego, things that offended you. I'm very sorry if I have done anything that hurt you physically, mentally or emotionally. Sorry if I let you shed tears for a menial thing such as I. Please, please, I ask for forgiveness from those mistakes I've made.
Thank you for all the things you've done for me, for all the efforts and sacrifices you've made for my own sake. Thank you for the undying love you've given me despite of my wrong-doings and lies. Thank you for the changes that you've done just to adjust to my convenience and for not changing for my good as well. Thank you for the "I love you"s for the "take care"s and for all the greetings that complete and inspire me to go on by the day and to look forward for tomorrow. Thank you for the touches of careness, and for the other touches I've experienced for the first time. Thank you for being with me for almost all the time>:o
I love you for being who you are, for not pretending to be somebody else and for being true all the time. I love you because you never wished me anything harmful and painful. I love you because you never left my side and helped me to go on. I love you because you never tried to be unfaithful and you chose to be straight even though I am not worthy for that. I love you because you accepted me for who am I and not for what I am.
... but despite of that I have to say goodbye...
Goodbye because I have to choose a path that I never expected to take. And that path leads away from you and somewhere I'll be alone and yearn for you all the time. Goodbye for the good of both of us. Not that I will forget everything that happened between us and all the times that we've shared together but I should face the future alone without you. I don't know what to do but I have to discover them myself because it is my destiny and these occurences are inevitable that neither can I do something about it. I'm thinking of the distance, the time, the place, the events that'll happen between us because I already know that those things will just hinder us to live our happy-side of our lives. Not that I don't love you anymore but I have to part with you no matter what; there's nothing I can do about it in the first place..."
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Masarap isipin na na-inlove ka kasi hindi mo talaga inaasahan na mai-inlove ka sa ganoong panahon, oras at lugar. Parang "wrong timing", pero ang kaibahan, mas masaya kang wrong timing kasi parang surprise! And surprises make us feel happy and excited. Pero hindi naman lahat eh na uuwi sa magandang "ever after" kasi hindi naman lahat ng nangyayari eh naaayon sa kung ano ang gusto mo, maging ng puso mo o ng isip mo.
Masaya ka kapag nalaman mong mahal ka talaga ng isang tao (lalo na kung kaunti lang talaga ang nagmamahal sa'yo [loner?]) pero masakit din kapag may nangyaring hindi mo inaasahan (i.e. namatay s'ya, nagkasakit, kailangan pumunta ng ibang bansa, ayaw na niya sa'yo, kailangan mong lumipat ng ibang lugar, ibang school, ibang bansa, ibang mundo?) Sabi nga nila, the higher the pedestal the greater the fall. (i quote)
BOE (based on experience) ba ito? Ewan! Ayoko magkwento sa inyo. XD Pero if ever man mangyayari sa akin 'to, sisiguraduhin kong maganda ang magiging "farewells" namin. Kasi pangit naman kung maghihiwalay kayo tapos bitter kayo sa isa't isa. O kaya maghihiwalay kayo pero umaasa pa rin siya sa'yo. May kilala ako, iniwan na siya pero umaasa pa din kaya wala pang nililigawan o kaya napapansin man lang sa paligid niya. Ang weird 'di ba? Pero ganon naman talaga ang nangyayari sa ngayon! Ang dami kasing maarte sa mundo. Kung hindi pwede e 'di hindi! Bakit kailangan na magkasama kayo eh hindi na nga pwede as in wala na talaga kayong magagawa! Kahit mahal niyo isa't isa eh ayaw ng hinaharap na maging kayo, ano magagawa ng pag-ibig niyo?
Pero sabi nila makapangyarihan daw ang pag-ibig (talaga?! joke!) Ewan, madami din kasing hindi na dapat gawing komplikado ginagawa pa din! Hindi ko maintindihan at hindi ko iintindihin kung bakit! Sayang lang oras ko! XD Pero kung wala na talaga, wala na...
Pero ganun lang ba talaga kadali 'yon?...
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